Intro (cont.)

Thank you Universe for Blessing me with a lil Angel. 

That saved me from the darkness I was so happy to be engulfed in.

I know I fall short of your standards,

Hell, I fall short to my own. 

I’m trying to be better everyday. Some days are better than others. But the unlimited opportunities to “get it right” that you have afforded me do not go unnoticed. 

Thank You

This journey has taught me more than I knew ever existed. 

I am extreme;y grateful.

Even when I’m feeling broken down, tired and defeated, I couldn’t imagine my life any other way.

Because he brings me so much joy.

Thank you for allowing me to be his mother.

I don’t always get it right. 

And he deserves someone who tries harder.

ALL KIDS DO.

But I promise to spend everyday trying to be a better  Mom. Everyday trying to give him the life he deserves.

A life full of adventure, compassion, growth, support, guidance, fun, understanding and unconditional love.

Because he did not ask to be here.

That was my decision.

So I’m trying to lift the unconscious burdens he may carry because of my mistakes.

I never knew that as a parent we unconsciously do that if we’re not living in the present moment.

It’s kind of helped me understand, to a degree, my biological mother. 

It’s a rough road.

And inconvenient journey.

But when I watch him sleep, all I know is… I see my heart outside my body.

He saved me.